I had been
going on my very busy way. In fact, I had so much going on that I had not
published a post in many weeks. The book I had written on "Evolving
with Trauma: Become your own safe, compassionate and wise friend" was
just finalised, published and then launched in February 2011. It was receiving
some critical acclaim and importantly appeared to be really helping some
people. I was thrilled! My practice and my life were literally thriving! I had
made some more tough and courageous decisions to set limits with important
other people and I was/am clear that these choices were indeed- very wise.
Then, seemingly from nowhere, I became very ill and died for a time!
My practice has been closed since May 20th, 2011. I will return slowly
towards the end of August/ early September. Re-claiming my physical health and
energy has been challenging and yet overall, has gone in leaps and bounds.
Something far more profound has occurred! I experience my deep, deep aloneness. Nothing and no-one makes this better - no distractions, nothing external. I feel my terror, despair and uncertainty. Strangely, it feels like I am meeting "me" for the very first time - I have met/ am meeting my own tenderness, warmth, humility, courage and love - from the inside out. I am sooo… grateful!